"My memory is nearly gone, but I remember two things,
that I am a great sinner, and that Christ is a great Saviour."
"Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first....."
I love the messages I hear at my church ~ sound biblical teaching ~ sometimes uplifting, sometimes convicting, sometimes they make me smile and sometimes they make be cry......and sometimes they just make me hurt deep in my heart. That's where I'm at now. Hurting deep inside. In our message last week we were encouraged to ask God, as David did, to ~
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting."
I have been asking and I'm not real happy with what I've been finding out. That's where the hurting deep inside is coming from. I'm discovering how far away I am from "that first love". How comfortable I've become maintaining the status quo.
In one of the commentaries I was reading it said (about forsaking your first love) it was a "failure to maintain the commitment".
This week's message began with:
"God is always on the alert, constantly on the lookout for people
who are totally committed to him."
2 Chronicles 16:9
Then we heard from Revelations 3:16 how important total commitment is to God. Did you know that He spits out those who are lukewarm!
In closing we were encouraged to share with God our hunger "for an authentic faith",
and for freedom from the status quo! And our desire to be totally committed to Him.
We were asked to say ~ "This week I'm going to bathe my life in prayer. I'm going to cry out to God to strip away all the pretense and my ready made excuses. I'm going to spend time with God each day this week asking Him to show me His limitless glory and His fathomless love in a fresh way."
Convicted ~ hurting deep inside ~ uncomfortable ~ and desiring to do more than just go through the motions...desiring more than the status quo.
That's where I'm at right now.
“God doesn’t call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesn’t come through.”
Crazy Love ~ Francis Chan