Monday, September 15, 2008

Random Monday Memories

Today's random memory isn't quite so random. It's specific to this day.....thirty-three years ago. My first child Ronnie was born on May 10, 1975. He died four months and five days later ~ on September 15 ~ he's my special memory for today.

Even after all these years, memories of him tug at my heart and, oftentimes, bring a tear or two to my eyes. But in recent years those tears have had more to do with hearing about others who've lost a child and having my heart break just a little for them each time I hear ~ and I seem to hear of it so much lately.

To them I'd like to say, the painful memories never get any easier. But the time lengthens in between and the painful ones sink a little more into your heart as time goes on. But the happy memories (no matter how few) like the ones that come from a much loved picture ~ those get brighter and brighter and better and better.

This picture was taken on September 10th ~ his four month birthday. He was just beginning to smile a lot. I'm smiling now just looking at it, and remembering........

Ronald Vincent Raymond
He was too good for this earth ~ so Jesus took him home.

In the most beautiful of gardens, even those tended by the most skillful of botanists, there is an occasional rose that buds, but never opens. In all respects the rose is like all the others, but something keeps it from blooming. It fades away - or disappears - without having reached maturity.

What happens in nature's garden happens once in a while also in the garden of God's human family. A baby is born, beautiful, precious, but fails to come to its rightful unfolding. This child, like the bud that never fully opens, is gathered back into God's heavenly garden of souls - where all imperfections are made perfect; all injustices made right; all mysteries are explained; and all sorrows turned to happiness. Richard Fairchild


The Feathered Nest said...

Oh sweet Marie. I'm so very sorry for the loss of your little angel...(((((hugs to you sweet friend))))) xxoo, Dawn

our shabby cottage said...

Oh Marie, I have no words to express to you how sad your loss makes me feel. I lost a brother when I was 5 (he 7) and only now, as a mother, can I begin to understand how hard it must have been for my parents and for any parent to lose a child. I am thinking of you and your family. Ronnie's 4 month old picture is beautiful. He would have been very handsome. Sending you some warm hugs, Kathryn.

Charmingdesigns said...

I lost my first baby, she only lived 24 hours...that was 28 years ago, yes it tugs at your heart whenever you hear of others. Laurie

Scrap for Joy said...

Your post brought tears to my eyes. I'm sure that the loss of a child never leaves your heart. How blessed he was to have a wonderful mother, if only for a short time. God's peace be in your heart dear Marie.

Lea of Farmhouse Blessings said...

Ronnie is just beautiful. I'm glad that you're able to remember the joys.

I lost a little one before he was born. He would have 15 years old this year. I never saw his face, but I know that one day I will and I'll hold his hand and tell him how much I have loved him all these years.

Sending you a warm hug,