"Help us to humbly put our hands into Your hand,
and to trust You and to seek Your will for our lives during this coming year."
I used this quote in my New Year's Day post. I worked on that post the morning of Dec 31st. Typically I set up the "next day's post" the night before. Occasionally I have it ready earlier in the day....sometimes even a day or two before....but 90% of the time it's just the night before.
When I chose the quote from Billy Graham I thought it was a nice quote...a really good prayer for myself, my family, and anyone else who happened to visit my blog. I had nothing specific in mind that New Year's Eve morning....something about it just spoke to me. So I decided to go ahead and get the posting done. Good thing....because had I put it off to do that evening...,well, I don't know if it would have "spoke to me" then. I was definitely not in the same frame of mind.
I probably wouldn't have even taken the time to set up a post that night.
You see, before the year ended something happened that abruptly changed my little world. When I (finally) woke up New Year's Day and got on the computer my new post was there. I read the quote again. I thanked God for the reminder and put my hand into His. God knew exactly when the post needed to be scheduled.
Everyone is fine...healthy...that's not the issue at all. But life has taken a very unexpected turn, and events leading up to that turn have stoked very strong emotions in me...so strong that I'm just not quite sure what to do with them.
But I do know what to call the emotions.
Fear, Hurt, and Anger.
I need to trust the Lord with the future and I need to somehow deal with my anger in a Biblical way.
I'm sorry to be so vague - but it's not entirely my story to share.
I share what I have so far because I know that there are people (who read my blog) who pray.
They take time and they pray, and I need those prayers right now....